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long weekend

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well, (almost) a week late, here’s a little bit about life MLK weekend. it was full of friends, settlers, & a lovely long run.

:: friday at school I went to visit some of my kiddos in aftercare (on site childcare after school is out). they were working on MLK coloring pages & I asked a beautiful little kindergarten girl if she knew who martin luther king jr. was. she said no ms. broom, who is he? so I explained about how some people used to think that black people couldn’t do everything white people could (she looks shocked & horrified) but that MLK stood up for people & explained that God made everyone & loves everyone & every single person is valuable & worthwhile & full of infinite potential, no matter the color of their skin. & he fought for everyone to be treated the same. I’m feeling pretty good about this little civil rights lesson. she pauses & waits until I’m finished & says, “ok ms. broom but how did martin luther king jr die?” …to which I said “man, you are doing such a great job of coloring that sheet, kiddo!” sometimes I forget how ugly the world can be until I see it through five year old eyes. (thankfully you could also substitute ‘beautiful’ for ‘ugly’ in that last sentence & it would still ring true.)

:: the new york times recently published a story on forgiveness & restorative justice that made me bawl big time. there are lots of different opinions on the death penalty from a policy perspective, but there’s no denying how compelling & utterly convicting this narrative is on a personal level.

:: this article by Jen Hatmaker makes me think about how hard it will be to be a parent & also kinda makes my heart sing, all at the same time: brave moms raise brave kids. challenging.

:: anyone girl who is single and/or dating should read these two articles: making out is not a date & I waited for him to tell me he liked me first. so good. & they come from a site, goodwomanproject.com that’s become one of my favorite resources to share. they publish posts on all kinds of topics that are real & insightful.

p.s. thanks to chase for the picture of our house. it’s apparently ‘instagrammable.’

major catch up

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avocado chicken salad makes me miss @emilygracestory       les mis with @reggiebroom & @hannahbroom. excited.

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things that have happened since I last really blogged: visit from beth & jacob & isabella & kirchbaby pt 2. betsy & stuart’s wedding + visit from christine! makin’ homemade christmas presents. christmas vacation. time with family. breaking my four year no puke or fever streak (in related news, david & I watched a whole season of lost while i recovered). trip to kosciusko. jared & annaclaire got married. we acquired a grill (thanks mom & dad) & used it. pizza night with roomies. such a good lunch with my mom. learning to be a better teacher. cooking new things. reading reading reading. settler’s of catan. visits from LA delta TFA friends. lots & lots more. but that will do. for now.

little drops of water

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a couple of weeks ago I went to Kroger after a rough day at school. this was a mistake. the Kroger on i55 is stressful enough on a normal day (no parking! totally backwards from college Kroger!) but after a long day at school it feels almost insurmountable. & it had been a long day, one of those bone-tired, chewed up & spit out days. I walked in with a dazed look on my face, fumbling for my poorly made list. an employee actually asked if I was ok. that’s how bad it was, guys. I was most decidedly not ok. I had an awful attitude, I was stressed & tired & I did not want to be searching for capers (they’re by the olives, fyi). still, I went through my list methodically, fighting the urge to just sit down & cry.

I ended up in the produce, making the usual selections–spinach, avocado, carrot sticks, gala apples. wait. WHERE WERE THE GALA APPLES? certainly not on the end of the apple display where they always are, where they’re supposed to be. I continued around the display, picking through red delicious, fuji, granny smith, pink lady…. nope, no gala. not even any honeycrisp (my 2nd choice). I had had enough & I kind of felt like pitching a fit right there by the lemons. frustrated, I turned around to leave, just in time to see the sweetest old lady catch my eye & say, “dear, you don’t happen to be looking for gala apples, do you? they’re over by the bananas today. I couldn’t find them either.” I inhaled deep, smiled, & breathed out thanks.

sometimes I like to think of grace as little drops of water in a desert. because once in awhile grace comes as a waterfall, big & grand, sweeping you off your feet. but mostly it trickles down in tiny drops. just when you think you can’t walk anymore. just when you are so parched you’re about to give up.

thursday morning was not so great either. so many questions & fears & insecurities. big awful conversations with people I love. it had been a hard night & the morning after I couldn’t get out of bed. I was lying there, almost literally crippled by fear & doubt. I tried the usual things… reading my bible, listening to music. finally I just cried & cried, asking God why we have to be sin-sick, why we have to hurt, asking why can’t things just be perfect? sometimes I ask those questions & I feel like I don’t get any answers.

but then a friend came over. & crawled in the bed with me. prayed for me. held my hand. got me up. took me to lunch. it was like I could almost feel healing falling down on me. little drops of water. they might not answer our biggest questions. but they remind us that the questions are heard. that we are loved. & right now, that’s enough.

p.s. thanks to david for the photo. he has a blog now, check it out.